30/9/06

// feeling :: good!
// prayer for :: tmr's svc...

Hmmz. Its 1816. I didnt go to church today because I had 'O' lvl art paper 1 to finish.

Mdm Lim talked to me nicely about needing me to stay back later today. But I am glad I stayed late..I did a lot today compared to other times...

I guess I work better and faster under pressure.

My gameboard's coming along nicely. I was sorta praying in tongues before I started work, still hoping against hope that I could leave early and make it for svc. But God blessed me by disciplining me to work fast and do quality work at the same time.

I have a chance to go for svc tmr anyway.

Ah. I forgot to gripe about my Chinese prelim results. I really wish I didnt waste my time retaking. I fared even worse than in Mid-Year! Grr...

I never should have retook it...I tried so hard and yet I get this kind of lousy results..

I'm gonna watch anime later...Hehz. Getting hooked on anime these few days..

I want to cut my hair. I dont like it =/

You know...The reason I cant wait to get out of sch.. is because the people ard me are...not to say they're "bad influences" but the things they do are against the Bible. The words they say are so crude..and they're girls.

Its sad to say this, but I was almost caught in it too. I would always manage to get out of it in time and resist the temptation with God's help.

Wrong things they do has become so natural to me that I duno what to say to change their minds anymore. Its become so natural that I'm almost beginning to think that it's right.

Thats why I cant wait to get out of school. Then, I wouldnt be so distrated by studies and just concentrate on Ministry, church and cell.

I love God :) I can never go through a day without Him.

29/9/06

Yeah then I was having my usual post-lovemovie syndrome: feeling lonely, and wishing I had someone with me. After I finished all shows, it was time for me to head down to CHC centre at Jurong for Prayer Meeting. And...surprisingly, I recovered from my "depression" immediately.

I said to myself: so what if I dont have a boyfriend. Right now, I'm going to meet my first Love. It felt...Wonderfully weird. But I loved that feeling. I have a wonderful Daddy God with me plus a lovely family & friends!

I tell you, once you change the way you look at things, you'd be a much happier person, like I was. Right now, all I'm interested in is my first Love. Although I do hope to find a someone special soon, I'm just not gonna let it go over my head. I know my Daddy God alr has someone in mind for me :D

I cant believe I left my Bible and notebook at my place in Dover -.-

29/9/06

// feeling :: great!
// prayer for :: hehz, Sis Cat.

Today is Sis Cat's birthday!! I came from school so I was wearin my sch u all the way. Anyway I managed to get somewhere after so long on my art. Hehz. I gave myself a target to finish up a particular part before I could go off to meet Belle and Mike.

They wanted to use my kitchen to cook Mike's supposedly "calamari rings", which turned out to be seafood rings! He smoked up the whole kitchen, and being a cooking noob, I forgot to close off the kitchen from the rest of the hse. Soooooo. The whole house got smoked up.

Belle and I used books, trying to fan the smoke out hahahahahah! It was so funny! We werent any help so we just let the electric fan do the work for us while we watched tv. In the end all of us smelled like smoke.

Bro Alvin came with a few of W229 members for some tuition, so the "unneeded" ones confined ourselves into my room. We played Monopoly, but it wasnt any fun without any shouting or what. I was uncomfortable sitting on my bed anyway. Haha.

The rest came soon after, and we did up Sis Cat's birthday present: a board with all our birthday wishes for her. Its so nice! I like it hehez.

First we had a Study Skills session, about how to deal with english essays and how to score for them. They are SO practical. Really. I can really use those for my english essays.

Speaking of essays, I got back most of my prelim papers. Dont ask about my results =/

Then we had fun and games. It was this unity game that required us to work together as a team in order to emerge as first and win. Our hands were tangled up and we just had ta untangle them and stand in a straight clean row. Our team didnt win in the end. Awww...But It was really very fun. One of the most fun games I ever played.

After that was P&W with Sis Cat and the Word with Brother Alvin. It was about our love language:

1. Words of affirmation aka words of encouragement
2. Quality time not quantity time!
3. Gift-giving
4. Physical touch like hugging

It made me ponder about how true my love for others is. Do I do these things? Or do I just love them without actions, thinking its alright?

Actually, these few days actually made me very aware about my own flaws. And I dont like them :( well, who does?

I always think of myself as more inferior than other ppl. My parents never really taught me on how to love myself and stuff like that. I had to learn it through church and friends. Sometimes I make the wrong type of friends, and everything would go downhill from there.

But I am glad I realized them now. Better late than never, huh? lol.

I'm embarrassed about my blog. Not its layout or what, just the happenings. I'm still contemplating if I should put up the tagboard again. See how.

Its midnight...

Happy Birthday,

YiSheng!

27/9/06

// feeling :: -shrugs-
// prayer for :: My dad ~

My dad's coming home soon. Yea!

I got back 3 prelim papers today. Not very proud of my results, but I'm proud for passing Maths. Its a miracle. Thank God.

Been thinking about the devil and stuff like that. I used to wonder how he looks like. I used to be so intimidated by him. Thinkin he's only a little smaller than God [which makes him very big], believing he's the most scary thing on earth.

Then one day Mike just out of the blue talked about him. Said that Satan is actually this puny little guy, brainwashing everyone's minds into thinking he's super big, super scary, and super manipulating. Sure, he's manipulating, I'll give him that. But big?

Ever since that enlightening talk with Mike, I like to think of satan as this :

Looks dumb huh. I used to be thinking whether I should love him too [I was crazy last time huh??]. Then I shared with Belle and said dont hate him or love him, just ignore him. Best thing I heard that day! Ignore satan..muahaha..

If you type "satan" into Google images, he comes out creepy. With horns, blood dripping from his mouth, serpents slithering on his shoulder. Heh. I admit I was scared when I saw those pictures.

I'm beginning to learn how to differentiate between satan's voice and God's voice. And I definitely like God's more :D

Plus, satan really is a loser.

26/9/06

// feeling :: Bored
// prayer for :: -I duno-

Am I relived this whole thing is over? Not quite..Things are starting up again.

I duno how is God looking at me now. Is it love? Or is it anger? How should I talk to Him nowadays?

I know its none of my business. But people just dont stop to think about other people's feelings, acting like they're the most pathetic in the world and people should just pity them.

I'm upset because when its none of my business; its not my fault, they just go and drag me inside, making eveyrthing a big fuss. What for?

In my heart, I definitely still love her. But I'm drained right now. Dont torture me when it has nothing to do with me. I do NOT feel happy when you're upset. So stop thinking like everyone's out to harm you.

25/9/06

// feeling :: good!
// prayer for :: my dad.

24/9/06

// feeling ::
// prayer for ::

I came home happy and elated, meaning to share everything with you, aka my readers.

My sister and I forgave each other barely 2 hours ago. I learnt the beauty of forgiveness.

And now I've seen the ugliness of anger.

I've taken down my tagboard. Its going to stay down, until you guys start respecting me and have the courtesy to think of my feelings before saying all those things in my tagboard.

I've had enough of all this childish fighting and rebutting of each other because IT IS NOT GOING TO HELP.

All of you will only end up hurting other people and yourself. And when that happens, which alr did, dont even try to blame other people.

All I ask, PLEASE, stop all this nonsense about fighting. We're all adults. Its not a competition between all of us. Its totally unnecessary and even if you dont care about your brother-sister ties, I still do.

He knows what you're doing. And you know that very well.

Where is your forgiveness and your agape love?

Has Pst's words turned into dust? Do they mean absolutely nothing to you?

Shame on me, more shame on you.

24/9/06

// feeling ::
// prayer for ::

I screwed up. I screwed up so badly. Within two days, so many things happened. Because of one post, so many comments were given. Because of one foolishness, so many people were hurt.

But I'm not going to allow it to stay this way..I have no idea how but aiya.

I quarrelled with my sister just now.

Just when Sis Cat was talking about regret on Friday. How ironical.

Everything's falling apart. Everyone's upset and it makes me feel uneasy. I duno wads gonna happen and I duno how ppl are gonna react.

Why does this has to happen. What will happen now?

22/9/06

// feeling :: tired, exhausted, restless
// prayer for :: tomorrow's seminar

I had a great day today. I'd wanted to meet Mike and Belle and do something before Cell starts. So the final plan was to go to my place at Dover to watch some anime. They wanted to meet at 10am -.- I had such a hard time waking up. I was nearly late too haha..Had stomachache at the busstop..

First we watched Karas, an anime dvd that Mike just bought. It was ok la but we kind of talked thru most of the show hahah! Always had to rewind and stuff like that.

Then nothing to do..Nothing to eat. Ordered KFC..It was ok lah but it could've been better. hehz..We ordered Crispy but got original instead. It was okay lah...Then I watched Belle and Mike play Vampire Night on PS2..Sry I had to make one of you use the game controller! I only have one gun xD

haha the stuff at my house really CMI..I pissed them off so much:

1. Belle's PS2 games cant work on my PS2
2. Wanted to play Vampire Night but cannot find gun
3. Found gun but found CD missing
4. Tried other games I had but desired ones cant work
5. Found the CD but had to use game controller in place of the gun for 2-player
6. Wanted to watch Tintin but cannot connect to TV

Lol! And I'm ashamed to say I was no help at all! xD All I did was sit there and laugh. Mike was the genius; he fixed almost everything. I'm so cheena. I dun even know how to work the stuff in my house.

So watched The Adventures Of Tintin on vcd. Watch until everyone sian. HAHAHA..Then I suddenly remembered that I have the game Monopoly at home. AIYA too bad I didnt think of it sooner. It was so fun.

We laughed at each other when we had fines to pay or had to go to jail. It was so fun ! In the end Belle got the most money..She got strategy sia...

Zz..It got interesting..Then Sis Cat came alr. So after awhile we stopped the game.

Today's Message was about regret.

I thought it was no big deal...Yeah, just a message about one of life's issues in a Biblical form. So I didnt pay extra attention or what.

Then she asked about our regrets that we remember most clearly.

To my surprise, I couldnt think of anything. Surely I would have regrets some point in time in my life, but I just couldnt remember. I either couldnt or didnt want to..

How to lead a life of no regrets? Simple.

I was taught that actually, the best way to lead a life of satisfaction is to believe in Jesus wholeheartedly and willingly. To trust in Him fully, to love Him and serve Him.

For in John 14:12 (NLT) says:

I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father.

So basically when the four disciples of God, Simon, Andrew, James and John (Mark 1:16-20), left everything they had to follow Jesus when He called them, they were not not regretful. Surely they thought, "ah, why did I leave my life as a fisherman to follow this man? I should not have done that".

But the thing is that, they received so much in return for their faith.

If you noticed, I underlined the word wholeheartedly in the previous paragraph..I find that is really the core of everything..One of the most important values a Christian should have.

Sure, in my whole life I've met many people. Growing up in a Christian school, I've met more Christian compared to non-Christians. So I've seen many Christians. I've seen quiet ones and humble ones. But I rarely see those who are on fire for Him.

Oh, nonchalant Christians are everywhere! Okok, almost everywhere. Not good to generalize -.- But yala its something that we cant ignore...People who go, "Aiya..Church tomorrow..Sian lor..Can dont go anot?" and stuff like that.

For me, I grew up that way. My parents forced me to go to church. They never taught me the true love of God. I said the sinner's prayer myself just because my parents said it was right. I was just trying to be the good kid.

Following God takes a lot of courage. Even going for alter calls. Raising your hand in P&W, worrying about what other people will think.

I for one, dont know how to give all of myself. But I simply do it for myself. I want to give all to Him cuz I want all of Him. I make right decisions, but with wrong reasons.

I've been making empty promises to Him lately. I said I'd change, but He just made me realise that He's still waiting for that promise to be fulfilled. Ok to spend time on friends and movies and arcade but not willing to spend time with your first Love.

I should not let other people affect my decision to follow Jesus. My Christian friends has been very critical about the amount of time I spend in church and cell. I usually get into disagreements with them and all would end up feeling lousy about themselves.

I refrain from talking to them about God. I get a lot of negative vibes from them whenever I want to share something spiritual with them, either a personal encounter with the Holy Spirit or something that struck my heart in service.

Thats why now, I dont really talk about God publicly. Only to cell friends whom I know will appreciate my sharing, like what I'm doing now.

Ah ok ok..I've been saying too much. Hehz..The message today impacted me.

Lord, thank You for today's message. I pray that You will help me lead a life of no regrets. Help me learn how to trust You and follow You! Amen. <3

21/9/06

// feeling :: :)
// prayer for :: Tmr's cell!

Weeeeell. I was almost late for my Chinese exam today. -.- But in the end with God's grace I managed to be a little bit early!

The compres were about food. And my stomach was growling even though I had breakfast. Passage A was about xia mian [prawn mee] and Passage B was about beef noodles. Ahhh! Its been so long since I ate beef noodles at Cine! I want to go again. -.-

Well after that I was so hungry that I chiong-ed up to the art room to find Shumei so we could go for lunch. But she was fiddling with the art room computers and clicking ard PhotoShop. Since I was trained at PhotoShop last year for my job, I tried helping her. But I forgot everything! Sad.

Yeah then it was my turn to play ard Photoshop so in the end we didnt go for lunch. I miss the canteen's food!

Then I headed home. At least today saved money on lunch haha!

On the bus...I was just listening to music and looking out the window. Then suddenly I thought of him. I duno how but..I suddenly remembered the things we used to do last time. I have a weird habit of getting nostalgic when I'm travelling.

Then I heard God speak to me.


Do not despise him; learn from him.


I was like, "ah?"

But I remained silent and just listened to God first. He took me through the times we had together and showed me how badly I reacted to certain issues. Then He showed me the present. Everything seemed distorted and destroyed in my hands. I was so overwhelmed by my own actions, so ashamed of my horrible behaviour.

I was so regretful. I nearly cried, then I heard Him say that its not too late to make amendments. So I sat up in the bus and I went through my mind what would be my next step.

Its so amazing how God speaks to you by slowly and gently moving your thoughts. Its not as if He suddenly thrusts an image or clip into your brain and in front of your eyes.

He waits until you're quiet, and when you're vulnerable to anything you think of. Once you have your first thought or reflection, He'll move you and speak so clearly. Its soft and gentle but it hit me harder than a frying pan on my head.

Its time I did something about my own life and relations, rather than expecting God to work the miracle in it. Its time that I will listen to God, and not just hear what He's saying. So, its time to obey. He knows all anyway ;)


I duno if this song is written for God, but to me, that "someone" definitely is God. And I love this song.

20/9/06

// feeling ::
// prayer for ::

All of us care when its our CGL's birthday. Why isnt W271 planning together? How come we dont even know about the going-ons?

I feel so lame just sitting here and not knowing whats gonna happen for her birthday. Are all of us just going to sit here and be filled in last min? How come we're not working together to make this a cell group effort, not just one person's or two people's effort. I dont even know when is her exact birth date -.-

Yeah, I'm not complaining or what, just so you wont get the wrong idea. Sometimes I really wish everything isnt just piled on the two "assistant cell groups leaders" and let everyone have a chance to take responsibility over a few matters everytime. Thats how the cell group can bond, right? We wouldnt all be getting the credit if we didnt do anything then.

But I dont want to be the one to talk. The reason I'm writing this here and not telling the whole cg is because I've just joined a few months ago and I dont really want to talk so much and let people think "who does she think she is".

Ah. But I'm not gonna continue sitting here and being an observer. I, along with everyone else I'm sure, would like to be a helper.

// feeling :: good~
// prayer for ::

20/9/0

// feeling :: revved for friday cell group.
// prayer for :: my chinese exam tomorrow!

Ah well. Didnt blog yesterday because I was kind of trying to complete my art research for today's art exam but kept getting distracted by comics, computer and stuff. Hahz. But I think I did a better job than I did in Mid-Yr so, yeah, all the way!!

Like I said yesterday, I did my piece on WWII. My dad's all-time favourite subject above everything and my favourite History topic. Beats every subject too, I guess. Because Britain and the U.S. beat Germany !! Yeah.

Hehz. I like the West :D

Everyone ard me seems to be becoming more and more vulgar these few days. I'm really afraid that I'll one day be influenced and start talking like some lian or what. Thanks to my low will-power, I'm alr a bit "lian" but I want to change! I dont like my old self.

Please God dont let me be influenced by them!! Keep my tongue clean. Amen.

Ahh..

Guess what.


In my dad's room ...



I discovered ...




Something.






2 of them.







2 almost brand-new Apple Macs!!!







I tried using one of them but no internet connection -.- and if I encounter any IT problem with my computer, I'll just switch it off, hoping it'll be fine the next day. And surprisingly, it always turns out ok.

But anyway...Touching and fiddling with that Apple Mac again brings me back memories about my lovely Mac a few years back. I duno where it went to though -.- It disappeared one day. My dad got a new laptop for us so I guess I kind of conveniently forgot about it :D

I hope I get a new laptop when I get into Poly...But I think by then my dad would be overseas. Sigh sometimes I forget about him leaving but I'll somehow remember it again at times like this.

I'LL MISS MY DAD :'(


and I miss my guitar too..I REALLY hope I can get it back this week. I'm probably going to start lessons soon and there's no way I can attend them without my guitar.

I wanna watch Prince of Eygpt. I was doing my quiet time yesterday and the scripture I was reading mentioned Moses refusing to be the son of the Pharaoh's daughter. I remembered the movie and I suddenly had a strong desire to watch it, but had to watch till today. Maybe God is gonna tell me smth in the movie? Lol ~

Yeah ok. I'll go put it on now.






"Let my people go!"

Lol.

17/9/06

// feeling :: er ~
// prayer for ::

Went for service with Belle, Mike and Dehua. It was good. On how to affair-proof your marriage. Heh, one super funny part was when the demonstater said that ex-girlfriend means she's expired, exterminated, exiled and something else. Cant remember alr.

But just before the service ended, when Pst Kong was having a song session for the married couples there, I was feeling fine in the first part. But in the middle of it, I suddenly broke down in front of God. I was so conscious of the fact that I dont have someone in my life for me.

I know, I know, its kind of stupid since "I'm only 17 years old". :) Maybe I juz wanna feel loved by someone.

Anyway...After service, Belle, Mike, Lamb, Dejin and I went to Belle's club again to eat. This time at Atrium or something like that. Altogether we ordered the sirloin steak, fish and chips, chicken chop, lasagna, spaghetti, and shared a lamb shank between us. Nice nice ~ the lamb was really very nice.

Then we took the bus to Kovan. Dejin left alr so the rest of us walked ard Heartland Mall. I was kinda feeling lousy about myself so I'd wanted to get something to cheer myself up. But nothing :( and on top of that I didnt manage to get my guitar back.

Anyway I can get my Bible soon. My dad blessed me financially today. I gave a-third of what I've received to my sister, and a-seventh I used to treat them to come drinks and snacks from 7-eleven before service. I think if God allows, I can get the Bible next week.

Mike was SO lame today. I duno what happened to him -.- he says its sugar rush. Yeah okay I'll give you that, but it cant have lasted for the whole day =/ but we all had fun.

Wanted to feed the stray cats at my void deck but when I got home it was raining -_-"

But the main event of today was service. It went great. I loved every minute of it, except perhaps the ending part =D

I've no exam scheduled tmr so I'm just gonna study Physics and do my art research. Unless Belle and Mike jios me out tmr. Well, I'll see how.

Happy 4th Month to me~!

16/9/06

// feeling :: fine...
// prayer for :: Tmr's service

WEE TMR IS EXACTLY 4 MTHS SINCE I RE-DEDICATED MY LIFE TO JESUS CHRIST IN CHC. 17th of June ~ It was the only time I really felt Jesus reaching out to me. The only time I dared make a decision to go up in front of so many people. I'm proud of myself :)

Yeah, today I went for a study session with W271 and W229 before service. I studied Physics. Yuan He gave me the necessary help I needed. It was good. Yeah.

I learnt a lot in service today. Will talk about it another time. But when Sandy came up to read out the love letter to herself, I was so touched. As if...Sandy wasn't Sandy. It was me. Made me realise I lacked a lot of self-love and respect. And that cost me dearly. I lost my integrity, people close to me...

Jesus...Really is my sole-provider. For EVERYTHING. But the thing that He provided for me that is the most important to me, was companionship. When I needed a friend to talk to, when I needed someone's shoulder to cry on, when I needed . . . someone to bare my soul to. He's invaluable :) my all in all.

Belle and I stopped by the Attributes Bookstore to look at Bibles. We saw this Bible that is so nice. I was so tempted!! I'm contemplating whether to buy cuz its like, $60 or $70. I forgot alr..Its weird that we "she de" spend loads of cash on electronics like computers and TVs but when it comes to the Book of Life we tend to scrimp a bit and save money. Hehz. I really like that Bible. I'll buy it when I can.

Went to Airport's BK with Ken, Mike and Belle. Mike was telling us about his db life. When I heard about how lame they were inside, I laughed like crazy. It seemed fun and all, but I guess I'm only listening to the "good" side. I think Mike didnt want to tell us how miserable conditions were because he didnt want to dampen our moods or something.

Heh. I hope I get back my guitar tmr.

When I heard the song "One More Moment" by Sun Ho for the cancer patients, the first line struck me.

Don't take too long to say "I love you" to the ones you love. Its commonly generalized to only girlfriend-boyfriend or husband-wife. But..yeah. There are others, like parents..friends. It may seem mushy or wad..but yeah. Its good to say it once in awhile.

So here goes...

Mum, Dad, Gab, Danielle, Belle, Mike, Lamb, Dehua, Yisheng, Bryan, Aaron, Sis Cat, W271, W229, 5B, 5A, all my teachers ...

I love you guys !

Last but definitely NOT least,

I love You, LORD!

15/9/06

// feeling :: great
// listening to :: Glory Shines - CHC

What can I say about today? Its always been a day I've been looking forward to, to come together with my cell and to just have fellowship and a time with God. I enjoy it very much ~

Anyway, I had Science Paper 5 [Practical] today. I didnt manage to finish my paper. I spent so much time on the last question that by the time I knew how to do it and started writing, time was up.

Today's Cell Meeting was together with W229, because W271 needed a guitarist. It was good. About communication.

I learnt how to fully communicate with other people, and what it meant to come clean with someone, and to share innermost feelings. I paired up with Simon, and saw a new side of him that I've never seen before. We prayed for each other. I thank God for this opportunity to have such fellowship with a Brother.

Then Sis Cat approached me and told me to gather those who are interested in becoming the cell guitarist. I managed to get Simon, Alissa and Weikeong. Then we just prayed together. Spent quite some time listening to God.

Sis Cat said that we have to be fully committed. And it requires our time and practice. I thought I could do it. I forgot now was the exam period. After the prelims, school would go back to normal. I wouldnt have the time then.

It broke my heart to say no in the end. Sigh. I love the guitar. A couple of days before today, I somehow missed my guitar a lot. So I sms-ed Joel, asking for it back. And now...Sis Cat asked about cell guitarist. I really wonder if I am the one called to be the guitarist. Duno...With my other commitments now, I'm not sure if I can quickly learn the basics and start playing for cgms.

I'll see how..I really wanna do something else for the cell group. Not just open up my house for the meetings and bringing friends. When I see Gregory play for W271 last time, I always felt this hurt inside my heart, that even though I want to be like him, I cant.

But I guess God has his own timing, yeah? I trust Him :) Hallelujah.

Your name is like honey on my lips, Your spirit like water to my soul. Your word is a lamp unto my feet, Jesus I love You, I love You.

14/9/06

// feeling :: Tired
// prayer for :: Tmr's Science Practical

Its boring staying at home for the whole day. I think my mind went dead.

I'm thinking of which ministry to choose-! God, help me -.-

I'm down to three. Its either:
1) Bookstore
2) Children's Church
3) Usher

I need to decide by tomorrow but when I asked my mom which one she thinks I should join, she said I shouldn't join any. *throb*throb* I'm caught in between.

I want to join; I want to do something more for the Church. But the timing . . . is couldn't've been more wrong. Signing up in the middle of my prelims? Not something that's recommended. I'll see how..For now..I'm just going to pray about it. I believe the right doors will open for me at the right time.

During the exam period, I kind of noticed that I have a lot of rough edges I need to smooth out. I've been "patiently" [some people would say "yeah right"] waiting to meet my future ahem ahem. Lolz. Have been having weird dreams about it lately but its kind of hard to distinguish which is meant to confuse me and which is meant to give me hope.

When I woke up, I remembered the verse that many people have repeated to me: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11.

I love this verse a lot. My parents had given it to me in separate occasions, and my teachers and mentors have used it once or twice too. I am embarrassed to admit this but during this period of time I've spent too much time looking out for anyone potential, and not focusing on how the Lord has blessed me so far.

He has His own timing. His will, and not mine, be done.

Maybe its just hard with all the reminders all around me. Everywhere I go, there're bound to be couples. 3 more months till I'm 18 ... Then I'll be in Ministry, I'll be in Poly. I wont have that much time to think about that then. Single life is good. Yeah...

13/9/06

// feeling :: blessed!
// prayer for :: increasing faith, breakthroughs, heart of love, mercy and anoiting!

I was reading many blogs today. More than usual. I came upon Jonathan's [W229] and Lynn's [N304] blogs. I suddenly decided to look through my spiritual journey thats more or less recorded in my previous posts.

I saw many things. But the most significant thing that struck me from Jon and Lynn's blog was that God never fails, God ALWAYS delivers. God is not a confused God, and God is an abundant God.

I came upon my old entry a few months back; it was about some reflections of mine. I saw the sentence "God has been blessing me so much. It makes me feel guilty that I'm just soaking in all the glory and anoiting but what am I giving back to God?"

I love God, and I love the people around me. I'm so much closer to God after a few months in CHC than I was in my ex-churches. God gave me so much. What am I giving back to Him? Complaints of a non-perfect life? Reluctance to step into ministry, do more than the minimum?

I want a life that's pleasing to God, and I want to also give Him everything I can. But the things I'm doing now shows others and myself that I seem to be doing it just for the BLESSINGS of God; just for the "benefits".

I dont want to be that way. I dont want God to serve me. I mean, sure, I do want God to prosper me. But I want to uphold His name too. I mean, I love Jesus..I love Him so much but it seems as though . . . I'm not doing anything that makes me even 1% worthy of the blessings that He's lavishing on me even at this moment.

God is a wonderful God. He truly is. I want to stop being a thinker and planner, and become a mover and shaker. I'LL BE A WOMAN OF GOD. And cease soaking up all the glory and take advantage of the fact that He's a merciful God.

You are the strength when I am weak, You are the treasure that I seek. You are my all in all!

I'm sorry Lord for treating You that way. From now on You have my word; I AM going to change.

13/9/06

// feeling ::
// prayer for ::

Something I experienced on the bus made me conscious of the presence of uncompassionate people.

On the way home on the bus, it stopped for a few minutes at a busstop because an old man, who is mentally unsound, had boarded but didnt pay his fare. So the driver was trying to get him to pay but that poor old man just didnt understand.

Then there was this guy sitting next to the old man..He suddenly yelled at the driver, "ta shi ge bai chi! ni ying wei ta, bu yao kai che, hai zhe li mei ge ren chi dao!"

Gab and I were stunned speechless. We both almost got up to pay the fare for that old man. Sigh some people dont seem to have any compassion. My heart went out to him.


Anyway, today was Chemistry paper. Luckily I knew how to do most of the questions. *phew* I still resent myself for forgetting to bring my Mathematical set during Maths 1. I lost like 5m on the qn..

There's no paper tomorrow, so I can look forward to relaxing. I do hope to go downstairs to feed the cats at my void deck. Its been almost a year since I did that. Mmmz. Its gonna be fun.

My papers left are: Science (Physics) 2, Art, Science (MCQ) 1, Science (Practical) 5, Maths 2 and Chinese 2. Zzz. Still have a long way to go.

12/9/06

// feeling :: swell
// prayer for :: tmr's paper

So ~ I changed my blogskin but there's something wrong with the tagboard. How in the world did it end up there?

There was English 2 and History Elective today. I was so sleepy in the morning I almost fell asleep in the middle of the English paper. Thank God I didnt. Turned out the topic that I studied for History didnt come out. But Russia did and I had studied that a little too. So I knew how to answer the question. Thank God for that too.

Someone touched a nerve today. Her words gave me an adrenaline rush and I ALMOST got up and banged the table. I didnt want that to happen to I quickly left. Luckily there was an anger management lesson last Sunday. Thank God for that also!

Oh well. There's Chemistry paper tomorrow. I needa go study soon. But I havent eaten yet ~ My stomach's growling.

Have a lot to thank God for.

God is good! All the time!!



I heard my younger sister getting reprimanded by my mom a few minutes ago, so I went to see what was going on. It was about her results..Either Term 3 or Term 4. As I was looking at her grades, it made me come to realise what kind of "role model" I was to her. What kind of example I'm setting, and what I should be setting as a big sister?

I hope she bucks up. If not. I dont wish for her to end up like me, having to go through an extra year in Secondary school because I cant manage everything in 4 years.

I wish I never entered N(A). "Are her results worse than mine?" No. Mine's worse last time. Hah..What kind of a sister am I. Only know howta play..Go church..No brains to study. But. Its not the first time I feel this way. My parents joke about me all the time. "Is there a 6th year in Secondary?", "Your dad's a general! How can you be in Normal?"

I know I know...

The JOY of the LORD is my strength.

11/9/06

// feeling :: drowsy
// prayer for :: tmr's paper.

When walking home from Tiong Plaza, I saw my favourite black stray cat I used to feed and play with. It was meowing so pitifully my heart went out to it immediately..I almost U-turned to go buy cat food from Cold Storage. I should start doing that again.

My grandma came walking into my room to talk about my sister again. Why does she go out so late? Who is she mixing with? Does she know how to stay out of trouble?

I couldn't answer those questions so I just kept quiet. Its normal for her to worry about Gab but I just dont have the heart to tell her that . . .

Yes, she's already in trouble.

10/9/06

// feeling :: bloated
// prayer for :: prelims!!

Sry for the second update..Juz had some stuff to share....

Simon and I went to Tiong's BK to study for awhile before going to the foodcourt to eat.. We talked a lot during dinner..hahaa..He told me abt his sch life and shared some secrets lolz...

Hmmm. I was thinking while I was walking home just now. I rmb when Lamb and I had a disagreement when he said I had to stop focusing on worldly things but focus on God 100%. I rmb that I was spending too much time thinking about Bryan then, and totally neglecting God.

But now..Even though I'd bitterly opposed Lamb about this, I had subconsciously adapted to that mindset and focused all my energies and my time to God. Then came the second opposition: from my closest friends.

They said I was not balancing my time and that I was really "too" devoted to God and the church. So what should I do?

All I'm interested in doing is serving God right now, even though I do have other priorities such as studies. Like, DUH. But aiyah. I'm going to join a Ministry alr. Cant wait for after exams so I can devote my time freely to church alr. Of course I'm going to work lahz..But see how.

I juz realised I'm talking a lot about redundant stuff.

OKAY! FINAL GO FOR TMR'S EXAM!

Bless me with your prayers, guys.

10/9/06

// feeling :: tired
// prayer for :: tmr's prelims.

Pathetically, I was the only one who went for Service 2 from W271. I felt so dumb being the only one from my cell. I called Lynn up and thank God she had extra seats. But the message was good. About Anger Management. I needed that man.

Then went for Prayer Meeting with Ken. Had trouble findin him and Sis Cat. After P&W, Ken came, then when it was time to pray, Sis Cat found us. I prayed with this lady that was beside me and Sis Cat prayed with Ken.

After the Meeting, Ken had to go off so Sis Cat and I were talking about Bible Study classes, Ministry, and exams. She wanted me to join Children's Church so I'm thinking about that..Its either that or Usher..Though I'd prefer usher lah. See how.

Wellz..She taught me how to study...How to manage my time properly..Then she told me to get Simon out later tonight to study Maths with me, since he's "smarter" and our paper's the same.

I'm so hungry. But I'm gonna ren till later. I wanna go eat BK den study..

Oh..Yesterday night I had a dream ... that when Sis Cat did some briefing with us, she specifically said this : "Remember, DO NOT bring home the offering envelope!" My face was so red that it almost burst. Omg I was so embarrassed!! But luckily it was a dream lah cuz I dun think she's that mean to embarrass me like that. Sianz. I still cant believe I nearly brought home the offering envelope for W271.

Sianz I'm getting a headache. My younger sister's blasting the music in my room with the speakers as if I'm not here and hogging my whole table. And I still need to study by Social Studies before I go to BK. Nvm. I REN!!

9/9/06

// feeling :: tired
// prayer for :: service tomorrow...

Hehez..Well today went for the Dessert Challenge! It was fun yah. I didnt play cuz I gotta accompany Shumei to talk to Sis Cat abt some stuff, then walk her back to the station. By the time I got back, the time for the game was almost up. But we didnt win =( lolz.

Then went for service. I was so scared there wasnt seats left so Belle, Simon and I chiong-ed into the hall to get seats first.

Today's service was good! We got our free workbook of Making Marriage Work lolz..The service really touched my heart. And yeah...I'm going to be 18 soon..In about 3 months, minus 2 days? Lol..

Cant wait to be 18, cant wait to get out of Fairfield, cant wait to start Poly life, and cant wait to step into Ministry! The ministry I wanted to go into has an age requirement of 18 years. Bleh.

Today...Had a lot of feelings and thoughts going through my mind. I dont know why, but I just cant stop myself from being distracted during P&W. I wanna, you know, juz go into the presence of the Lord and just to stop all my emotions and my thoughts, and focus on Him. Somehow, it was hard. Its always been hard but I believe that its not going to stay that way forever. It'll change one day..and its gonna be tomorrow! Yeah baby.

O Lord, my God, all I desire is You. O Lord, my God, all I desire is you. More precious than silver, more costly than gold. No riches in the earth compares with you. What does this world have to offer, when all I desire is YOU.

8/9/0

// feeling :: Tired; accomplished
// prayer for :: dad's gout

Wee ~ today was fun beyond words! There was an Island Trek at Sentosa. I was supposed to recruit a minimum of 6 people into my team but I only managed to get 5 friends down: Aaron, Gab, Shumei, Selena, Amanda.

Well, we met at Sentosa island and the briefing began. Our team, coded blue, was the first to set off after finding out where we should go. Haha, first part, we ran. Afraid that the team behind us would catch up and overtake us...In the end they did la. Lolz.

It was super fun. We were tired, yes, but it didnt stop us from having fun. I was so afraid that Selena, Amanda and Shumei werent enjoying it, cuz it only seemed like Aaron, Gab and I were prticipating in it. Aaron seemed more the leader than me =/ Sianz that shows how involved I was.

Anyway, we went to the Dragon Trail, then to Siloso Beach, then to Fort Siloso, then straight to the finishing point. We were beyond the time limit so we thought we'd better head back. We were the first to reach -.- then Sis Cat interviewed us, lol. Aft that Brother Alvin looked at the photos we were supposed to take at the stations.

It was unexpected, but our team won first prize! Aaron and I were bracing ourselves for the bad news of not completing all the tasks. We only got 3 out of 5, which wasnt very good..But well, it was fantastic. I had such a great time. I do hope Selena and Amanda did too. I know Gab and Aaron enjoyed themselves. In fact, if it werent for both of their brains, we wouldnt be able to complete even one. Required a lot of thinking.

The prize was a $40 voucher for PastaMania! Lolz. How lucky.

And tomorrow, there's a Dessert competition. Like, eating. So fun lah. Haha. Maybe Gab and Aaron are going. If they go . . . I duno wad will happen sia. If you wanna talk about eating, they're who you go to. Expert on food. -.-

Aaron told me something very encouraging in the Sentosa bus on the way to Harbourfront MRT. I think I will share it at CGM tmr.

I'm glad I didnt give up asking people along..If not..I wouldnt be able to form a team with just my friends and I alone...But I thank God. He made all this possible. He even held back the rain till we were on the bus safely going back to the MRT. I duno if it was for us, but I thank Him anyway.

Tmr's gonna be great ~~~ cant wait.

7/9/06

// feeling :: Awesome
// prayer for :: Tmr's game and weather

Today actually supposed to go for art. But Gab, Shumei and I came for about half an hour before leaving alr =x haha we decided to go to Shawn's place to pool.

So I went home with Gab, then Bryan came to pick me up at my house. We argued about the directions to the place before FINALLY making our way to Jurong Point. Picked Shumei and Shawn up and Bryan drove us to The FloraVale condo. I didnt like the way Shawn told him how to go there. As if he's their hired taxi driver -.-

The pool table so small. I played one round nia then Bryan played two rounds with Shawn. Yeah then they juz pang seh us there -.- nvr even tell Bryan which floor is the carpark on. We went to Jurong Point to find Gab and Cailing. They didnt want to eat so we went to Fish N Co!

Whee ~ I rmb the first time I went to eat that with Ken, Belle, Mike and Lamb. They ate so much tatar sauce that its creepy. Anyway Bryan had the rice and I had the chips so we split it half-half. The rice is nice. The soup was too. Loved everything. I dont regret going there.

Wanted to watch movie, but it was kinda late..So we went to walk ard. Walk here, walk there. Spent quite an amount of time in Toys 'R' Us. Hehe it was fun, reviving old memories of toys and stuff like that. It was fun. Cheap thrills. Haha.

Actually supposed to go home..But when I got a call from Maggie saying that there is a small CGM at CHC building at Jurong, I got upset, because we JUST came from there, and we were reaching my place alr. I got pissed, and intended to take the train from Tiong back to Jurong after Bryan dropped me off.

But he U-turned without even tellin me and sent me all the way to the building! I was shocked speechless. I guess its my good fortune having such a good friend.

So he dropped me off, and I went to find them. Waited quite some time for Sis Cat to finish BS with Wendy and Xinni. Then we discussed about tmr's CGM at Sentosa. Yeah. We got a good idea for tmr and its really gonna be fun. I would be looking forward to it if it werent for the fact that I need to get 5 more confirmed people tmr. I dun wanna be disqualified !

Heh but I'm trustin God. I've asked EVERYONE I can. Phew. I'm exhausted.

Today was great; I enjoyed myself so much. Hope Bryan did too.

OKAY! I'M GONNA GO ZZZZ NOW! Nights all.

6/9/06

// feeling :: Good
// prayer for ::

Well today, I went out with my mom for lunch and a bit of shopping. Went to eat at the Olive Tree at the Inter-Continental hotel. -Posh-

I had the spaghetti haha, some salad, soup...And a lot of dessert, almost force fed by my mom. Then had coffee..I'm never good at drinking coffee. I put in a whole lot of milk, added 3 sachets of brown sugar and 1 sachet of white sugar before it tastes fine. Cant stand bitter stuff..

Have opened myself up to my mom more this year. I'm able to talk to her about guy problems and tell her if I saw a cute guy..Lol.

Yeah, then we went shopping ard. She bought a white Polo Tee for me, something I've been wanting for a long time. I saw this super nice top at Lver. Whoa so nice so nice. I wanted to buy.

Yeah, then went back to Tiong, bought stuff from Cold Storage and from M1 shop. Some handphone pouch for Gab and I. Now I dont have to lug ard a wallet and a handphone. I just stuff everything into that pouch.

Zzzz. Supposed to go out tmr. But I've been told today that I have art tmr. Hopefully I can make it out in time...Been looking forward to it.

Well today was lovely ~

I think I'll go watch some shows nw..Lolz. Tah..

5/9/06

// feeling :: tired but refreshed
// prayer for :: Bryan's test tmr

Today was a bad but also good day for me. The morning turned out quite bad, and I had to turn to Bryan and my mom for advice. In fact, they're the reason I'm not mad at him right now..

So the rest of the day was pretty bad for me. I was feeling so awful and lousy that I did everything I could but didnt find happiness in any. I watched anime, played Maple, chatted online, went to cut hair.. [I like my hair though]

Actually thought of meeting Bryan for pool cuz I didnt want to go home and start moping ard the house, but we decided Thursday would be a better day.

Went home with my sister and went to buy dinner. Then after that my head was in a mess and I didnt know what to do; what was the next step to take. So I msn-ed Bryan and just told him that I was confused. I just didnt want to be alone tonight. He called me..And when he knew I was upset, he immediately dropped everything and drove down to my place.

I didnt expect it. I thought him accompanying me on msn or even on the phone was alr very good, much less coming down to meet me at such a late hour. I walked to Tiong park at ard 9 plus and waited for him there. He bought some bubble tea for me too...

I thought I'd have a lot to say to him, but when I saw him, all fret and worry was gone. I felt at ease and a sense of peace. We talked about it, talked about God, talked about our past lives...We realised that..It took us 2 years to recover from our breakup and come back together as good friends. I wonder how long it would take for us.

What Bryan did for me was extraordinary. Not something that other, normal friends would do. He has school tmr and even a test...

He gave me this special analogy: there are a lot of trees near our area. If one were chopped down, would the others fall too? I took some time to get what he was trying to say.

Even if one tree was down, the rest would still stand. I would still have many people around me who care about me.


Its strange how people are. "You dont miss your water till the well is dry". Its true. It sucks, but its true.

Did a lot of pondering these few days. But Bryan had been an exemplary friend to me. A friend I should have been to him when he was down and out.. Oops =x sorry!

He reminded me to be God-looking. I lost my focus in God after this. Dangerous, dangerous. It will never happen again...

4/9/06

// feeling :: sad
// prayer for :: Irwin's family

I came online with a light heart before I saw the news of Steve Irwin. He died, caused by the barb of a sting-ray. Sianz. I think a lot of ppl are gonna miss him cuz he's quite famous..

Condolences to his family..


Anyway...I went out today. Went to CineLeisure with Bryan for a movie, the break-up. I think if you have been reading my blog, you'd be wondering why I'm watching it again. There are no nice movies now, cept for that one. I wanna watch The Devil Wears Prada though. It looks quite nice. And Eragon's coming out soon!

Well first we went to eat at PastaMania. I had the Creamy Chicken. FINALLY I managed to eat pasta. I mean, I've been trying to all this time but juz cant seem to end up with pasta. I loved it but I couldnt finish it -.-

Yeah then Bryan bought a chocolate mousse for me ^_^ first time I'm eating that. Nice nice ~

Uhz..Then watched the movie. Nice. Nicer than the first time I watched it on DVD. The DVD quality was lousy and I couldnt really hear what they were saying. But the movie was unique, as most "love" movies have happy endings, but the guy n the girl didnt end up together.

Well then he sent me home. It was a good day. I enjoyed myself, although I duno how come I was so tired today.

When I came home, I wanted to start blogging, but I remembered that I had planned to listen to Richard Blackaby's sermon on tape. Its on Hearing God's voice. It was great. I loved it.

Then Pst Blackaby said something that struck my heart. He said we all take Jesus as our best friends. But are we good friends to Him? Are we Jesus' best friends?

And do we make empty promises to God. How many times have we said we'd change and be more sensitive to Him, and a week goes by, during which we conveniently forget what we've promised God.

I feel so much closer to God these few days. More sensitive to Him. I guess its good. I realise I dont care anymore about how people think about me and my church. They dont know God like I know God, and they dont love their church the way I do. Cuz church and God is my life. I can take care of myself. They should worry about themselves before they go ahead and put judgement on people's lives.

Maybe it was my fault from the beginning to get them to list down the discomfort with me being "onz" for church. "Onz"...I dont believe that you can be onz for church..its what we should be doing. How can you love someone if you only love their heart, not their body.

4/9/06

// feeling :: Monotone.
// prayer for :: Nil.

I gotta change. I should change. I must change. I will change.

All for the glory of the Lord.

4/9/06

// feeling :: tired
// prayer for :: Mike

Well. There's A LOT to talk about today.

First, I went with Dehua to service. Only 5 ppl came, if u wanna count Joel [he didnt sit with us], from W271. Meiling, Simon, WeiKeong and I, plus Joel. P&W was wonderful. Although I do get distracted from God sometimes, which is a very bad habit.

Today's sermon was about the marital pyramid. About habits from parents being brought forth in the children, resulting in the altering of their minds and mindsets. Then Pst Kong went to Inner Vows. Vows made when we were young but forgotten.

It struck my heart, and I got reminded of a Inner Vow I had made a year ago. It's stupid and kind of embarrassing so I dont want to say it here...but I told Belle..Yeah. Then..As we sang the song "Heart After You", I juz broke down before the Lord. I came to Him with open arms and a broken heart.

Then..This lady beside me..She came and put her arms around me. I dont know who she is..but she probably knew what I was feeling and she interceded for me before God. Then she prayed for me. She said this simple yet powerful phrase to me..: Jesus will protect you.

Then I felt Him. So strongly. Like never before. I heard Him tell me that He will take away my vow, and He will not mend my heart, but He will change it into a whole new one. Thats..Thats the love of my God.

After the service, the lady hugged me. And she really hugged me. Like..A mother. And we hugged for almost a minute. She was great..I feel like she's a Godsend, you know?


Well..After the service, we met Lamb, and Simon, Dehua, Lamb and I went to Great World City to eat and to pool. I met Bryan at GWC and I followed him to eat first, before walkin over to the "pooling place" or wadever. Sianz, Lamb, Bryan and Dehua got so "pal" the moment they started pooling. They all so good lar...Simon and I hardly played; we shrank when we saw their skills.

Hehe then I played two games with Simon. Won the first, lost the second. I suck man, really.

Then they wanted to bowl. Lolz. Simon went off first. When I bowled the first frame, I scored a strike. From then on, I kept bowling gutter balls. And my score was 27! I've never been so embarrassed in my life.

Then Bryan and Lamb taught me the proper way of bowling. For the second game, I broke my personal record of 99 donkey years ago. Haha, I had 105. But everyone bowled superbly. Lamb had 91, Dehua had 142 [ >.< ] and Bryan had 117.

Yup then Dehua went off. I went to Plaza Sing with Bryan and Lamb to have dinner at Cafe Cartel. I had the bbq-ed ribs =P it was great although there was a lot..I ended up giving quite a bit to Bryan and Lamb. But nice nice.

Yup then Lamb sent me home. We saw the baby Anklesocks at the busstop! Eeeee, so cute! haha. It liked Lamb. Lolz. So cute la.

Yeah, then here I am...I had a fantastic day today, because God really blessed us. We had such a great time. I hope to do it again sometime...

2/9/06

// feeling :: kinda tired
// prayer for :: Belle

Well today was fun! Haha, first, I went for art, which was a hard time for me -.- because some stuff happened n all that. But well thats over, thank God.

Then I went home to bathe and change, and met Belle and Lamb at Tiong, so we could go to Expo together. Well Belle had a fever. Tsk tsk. I think 38-point-something degrees. It was point-2, then went to point-4.. Haha den Lamb bought for me the Chip and Dale handphone screen! Weee ~ haha thanks Lamb!

Well W271 had a conference call because no one turned up for make-up cell at Simei and Sis Cat was really angry because well, who could blame her?

Well then we made our way to Expo..Lamb and I wanted to send Belle home in a taxi but the queue was ridiculously long due to Comex or duno wad thing at Expo. So Belle juz went for service. Haha, bought hot dogs for Lamb and myself cuz we were hungry. It was nice~

Yeah, then quickly went to find seats, but the best we managed were the extreme choir side, though it was the floor. I was running around for about 15 mins trying to get seats on the slope then I stopped to chat with Lamb and Bryan haha. Sianz la Bryan kept harping that his phone was better than mine. But his phone is really slick. I like it.

P&W was great!! I loved all the songs.

Yeap, today's sermon was about Debts. Well not really la. Its "Money, Marriage and Mortgage" I think. It was cool. Taught us how to handle debts and how to be debt free, because my God is a debt-cancelling God! haha..We said that loads of times during the sermon.

After sermon I talked to Lamb for awhile before Belle and I left him there for Bible Study. I sent Belle home. Diaoz, in the train, she almost vomitted. I was so freaked out, with no plastic bag and all. Luckily there was this guy [planted there by God I believe] that quickly gave me a plastic bag. Then we alighted at the next stop: Bugis.

After awhile, her nausea was gone, which I think is motion sickness..Yup, then we got back on the train, alighted at Tiong and took the bus back to her place, which was locked cuz she didnt have the key with her..haha. So we waited. Talked and all that. For like half an hour? Then her mom came back so I left.

I was scared out of my wits because it was so eerie there at night. Luckily Bryan called so I wasnt that scared anymore, until he started being stupid and made ghost noises -.- Then I called Lamb and we talked till I reached home.

I'm going for service again tomorrow. Bringin Dehua with me and maybe his friend...Duno lar see how. Tmr's gonna be great.

1/9/06

// feeling :: happy
// prayer for :: tmr's service

This morning, I had this strange dream. I had it 3 times consecutively, regardless of whether I woke up or not. Even though it was almost all the same, it was of different scenarios. I dreamt that I was with the one planned for me to spend my life with.

You know, all three had different circumstances...it was weird. But well..Its kinda dumb la to be talking about this. Just that that dream made an impression on me because, well, it concerned the one I'm gonna be with in future. He was someone I hadnt met..But then again, dreams arent a crystal ball. But I like them because they give me a hope for the future.

Anyway, I spent today playing Maple, then going off for Cell Meeting. Had an impromtu meeting with Belle and Lamb at Tiong Popular because I needed help choosing some balloons. Yeah, then we parted with Lamb before going to my place at Dover. Hehe today is PotLuck!!

There was sambal chicken, beehoon, chips, doughnuts, and chocolate cake! And wonderfully, no one thought of bringing drinks -_- so we had plain water.

Yep first was games, then was the sharing. It was really cool. I learnt a lot a lot. It was about what we should be doing, what kind of committments we should be making in His ministry: membership, friendship, ministry, then mission. Should be la, if I didnt get it wrong haha.

Yah God was real to me today. I could feel Him. Closer than ever before...

Then had a great time feasting. Ate and ate and ate. And since we had quite a bit of food left over, Sis Cat decided to play the Number Game, and whoever lost had to eat a portion of the food. I got once, MeiJuan got twice [lol], Dehua got once, Ken got once and Sis Cat got once. Haha, Sis Cat got the worse.

Then washed up. Yeah. It was great fun..I had a blast.

Talked to Sis Cat about some stuff..Yeah. Thanks to Belle lolz. But yeah it was good lar..It helped me gain a little bit more direction. Now I know what to do . . .